IS THE DEVIL EVEN THAT INTERESTING?

ONLY HITLER.

He taught me:

That without meaning there is nothing.

Starting amphetamines can take you to great heights and great downfalls.

Yelling can get people’s attention, however, so can saying things really slow and softly, because its just as weird and unecessary. It will not help us understand you any better or at all. It will probably make us think you are unhinged and people tend to just nod and smile to unhinged people. Something like a burden, “Look dude, we ain’t here as trained psychological professionals, sort ya shit out, than lets attack Syria or whatever…..”

Hitler taught me I was Hitler (sans racist stuff and hating jews, it meant I was a mini dctator). As in, I was anti-male and for no reeeeeeel good reason either. Good news! I love men now, saw the wrongs of my ways and will pay in karma forever more maybe but if you take it you gotta pay it. Ya know?

In any case, I worked through my femcel shit like a grown ass woman! SOMETHING Hitler was not. This is where Hitler and I part ways actually.

But first, one thing I’ll say about Hitler is this, and not many people say this about him I don’t think, but he is a multi faceted character SEEMINGLY. Excuse me, the narrative of him is anyway. It’s why he is still very fascinating to people and why there are still Nazis today I assume. (I really don’t understand being a modern Nazi these days still though. You only got 80 or so years to live, if you live an entire normal curve life span give or take, and you are wasting it on Hitler, the guy who killed his dog and himself in a murder suicide situation?).

My thoughts are that he had someone shoot him, and was too much of a pussy to kill himself. This is after his wife suicided wife and Hitler suicided his dog. Hitler, you really planned a blunder of a ending for yourself, you are a fool.

I’m not endorsing Nazis or Hitler obviously, and im obviously not glorifying them, how could I? They lost (oh yeah, plus they stand for everything I don’t ha). (They didn’t lose by heaps though, they got pretty far with propaganda and manipulation however that can only get you so far up against total war with Russia).

I am reading a book called “Hitler’s Strategy,” a old library book I found first edition from the Australian Armies Library, last hired out in 1971. Written in 1956 or something. Hot tip I am constantly finding first edition books worth hundreds to thousands in the $1 section of certain Chapel street op shops. (reading the Greek mythology plays at the moment. I wonder if Stephan Fry’s book on the topic is worth it…. someone holler at me if you know).

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In any case, as I said earlier, until I was in my mid 20’s I was a dictator. I was never told I should understand the things I can change, know the things I cannot and have the wisdom to decipher the difference. That’s the issue with dictators, they are not grateful and are clouded with resentment, the only thing they constantly see is red. And so did I.

(Taylor swift has a song and album called RED.)

Hitler taught me that narrative weaves deeply through a persons identity and once the person completely takes to the identity, it’s hard to rip it away from them. GOD DAMN NEAR IMPOSSIBLE.

One thing you can change, is the narrative another human has about you, whether it’s true or not. (Its easier if it is, but understandable if it can’t be for various reasons).

How do you change a person’s narrative about you?

First, you need to understand their narrative about themselves really well. Most people’s narratives about themselves are quite obvious, the norm. But they either a victim or they are not is the most important narrative to look out for.

If you cannot quite understand who they are after an hour being with them this could mean a few things. 1. They simply do not know who they are/they are lost. Therefore, that’s who they are and that makes them a victim. 2. They know themselves very well, and the honesty and truth they are portraying doesn’t seem trustworthy to you. This can quickly turn to you being the victim, make sure you get that right.

Get to know who their mother is, pick the versions of her that are appealing or that you possess already and make that the narrative to portray. This is a easy one to get them to digest fast, but regurgitation almost impossible.

Dictators tend to isolate their countries while changing their narratives about themselves, outside influence can interfere with your hard work.

Be good looking. Aesthetically pleasing things are easier to digest.

Fear almost digests automatically, without any process or effort. Get to know what they fear the most and turn that into a pleasing narrative or weave it in, people love to hate their fears. Like a roller coaster. You always wanna go again.

There’s more, but for now that will do I don’t want to end up on another ASIO list. (I think writing ASIO you end up on a list….I love ASIO….).

If you can’t change someone’s narrative about you in those steps, you have not chosen a victim and likelihood have become one……..opps. In any case, don’t flog a dead horse, give it up and be yourself, or find a actual victim and have the wisdom to know the difference this time. Never waste time. It’s also better to not do this, it comes with a lot of bad karma………thought I’d add that.

I waste time all the time and I wonder why?

Is Hitler the devil?

Does the devil ever win?

Does anyone ever win?

DEFINE “WIN”

As in, what context?

The Devil taught me that God is not perfect.

In English - No one is perfect.

The road to that knowledge is really painful. And you will behave non integrally while searching for this knowledge. The longer this lesson takes to learn, the more dangerous you become……..to yourself.

The short cut is simply to allow yourself to fall. Allow your differences to define you from the rest. Work to your strengths and this will weaken your weaknesses.

This is speaking only from experience. That experience was in the past. This is all just wisdom I’m passing down to myself in public.

My Queen Anne’s lace heart, weightless on your little head.

Why did the Devil sacrifice his first child?

Is the devil even that interesting?

Why would he have goat horns?

Why is he half animal/half human?

Why is he a he?

What if he was a she?

I know the devil feels virtue-less.

I know the devil feels.

How do I know? Educated guess.

UN-educated guess? It’s maybe the way he died. But it was so dramatic and way too just for the devil. The women of Athens died much more brutally.

Opps.

Change of subject.

Heaven and Hell

When I think of heaven and hell I think about a world like this one, in which we live. The mediator world, controlled by the energy of human beings. Because it is controlled by the energy of human beings, you just got to think who are human beings? What is our character, biases, stereotypes, likes, dislikes, trends, habits, beliefs, rituals, values, principles, intentions.

One thing I always remember about human beings is that they have a negative bias evolutionarily speaking. This used to be a good narrative to weave into the mix, for it made us prepare a lot earlier for danger than we could face like saving us from being eaten by the Mammoths or animals of the like and size, also monsoons and disease even maybe.

Preparation, strategy, goals, planning, strong narrative, industriousness. All these things reside in hell. Because if you don’t possess these in hell, you bleed out like the devil did.

When you find yourself having plummeted to hell, you might start to bleed out, but with strength in any of those traits, you can stop it. OR there is one other trait that can stop it.

DENIAL.

But the problem with denial is you are on a timer and you have no idea how much time you have been given. It could be a few days, weeks or years. You will not know.

What makes it worse is, in that time you tend to lose all sense of time a lot. Days go missing, night and day sometimes become one in the same and another problem is that you are totally ok with all this time warped crap going on.

More than ok with it, you feel like you have taken the best holiday of your life. This is a big problem when you are bleeding out on a timer. What happens in the last few moments of that time?

Well, you will get a chance of course. A chance to come back here, where human beings live right now. The time dimension. Where is hell? Hmm not sure.

Maybe its just in another version of this reality?

Why have I not mentioned heaven?

Heaven is in you.

Or it is apart of you and you are apart of it. But in no way do you need to be there all the time, just when you need to see to some important business, so that you don’t go into hell again.

Which you will. Just don’t bleed out.

In a time of denial, what also is not so good about this timed experience is the whole time you will feel like you are bleeding out. You are not technically, you have some unknown amount of time to kill before literal bleed out, in which you will have but seconds to work out how to get back to this reality. However, you will constantly have a feeling in the back of your mind like, “something is not going right.”

The devil makes it a ALMOST sum zero game, like the government. But there’s always portals to travel through where you can get little wins here and there and feel mortal. Just don’t get caught up in it all that, because actually it is a sum zero game, and you will always lose eventually, but so will they.

In english - failing is the point. (death/genesis). Not knowing is the point. (time). denial is necessary. (invention).

So what happens after the denial ends, the timer is up and you begin to bleed out?

You either win or you lose. There is no room for failure now. You had time to train for it. All the time before you fell into hell and all the time the timer gave you. In which, you were in denial so you didn’t literally know ever that you needed to train for this, you just got to hope that you did accidentally.

HOW DO YOU ACCIDENTALLY TRAIN FOR STOPPING THE BLOOD ON D-DAY? (blood day).

KARMA.

The dharma you collect over time will predict the amount of karma given to you once the moment arrives when you will need it the most.

It is a different kind of training then the olympics. It is a test, have you been a good person more than a bad person OR has the good you have done out weigh the bad? These are the questions that will be unconsciously asked of you in this time of judgement.

Does nature judge?

Is nature just?

Nature IS CONSCIOUS.

Therefore yes, it judges.

Which is why Karma is the most important thing in the world to us, or should be.

But most people won’t appreciate this in the west, until…….blood day.

I got stuck in hell once. And the heaven in me survived it. I remember everything about it except the days that went missing of course.

Logically speaking, my timer was set at about two weeks.

And in the moment of truth and fight and war, when my timer ran up, I wanted to bleed out forever in hell. I didn’t even try to stop it.

NATURE started talking to me and told me to stop. Stop this. You need to stop.

I was not obedient at first, but I respect authority figures ultimately and I so I used my Karma I had been given during the war and was thrown back to reality.

In English - I had strengthened my relationship with my meta-cognition, during the years I got clean in recovery in N.A and through facing some fears with it including sleep paralysis (mind over matter), in N.a was when I heard my meta cognition for the first time and it was really funny.

I didn’t just hear it, I was able to notice from it’s perspective the other parts of me having a conversation. My shadow was scaring my little child again, telling her she MUST do these awful things she didn’t want to do. But the things were so silly like burn down houses and stuff like that. It was funny. And my meta cognition and I laughed. We laughed with love. Love for both the shadow and the child, and then they both felt loved and it stopped and it was over. It was a passing thought that carried no actual fear or weight in the real world, so we laughed and let it go for them.

That was the beginning of beauty.

When in a time of judgement in hell, the only way to get out is with love.

In English - Shake your body a lot all over to wake yourself up or call emergency services.

Vivian V

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