I've died twice and with one came a reincarnation. The second one part of me has stayed died and no reincarnation in sight seemingly. That's where I am now. But, the third spiritual awakening It was literally just an awakening and kind of a reuniting with my inner child aka my soul.
....and a tout of this new dimension I had entered including a floating grandfather clock and being told colour was superior to time. ......I was not on any psychedelics just FYI
Because its plagiarism to start but also its boring. It's much more interesting yo hear someone's reaction to something than just regurgitating others words. Imagine I did that with my blog. It would be very boring and meaningless. I'm more into Hinduism as a life philosophy
I don't seek grief quite the opposite however surrendering to grief is a beautiful thing to do. But it's not always so easy. I've never found surrendering to pain as easy. Or wanted. I've been trying to become friends with pain lately. Because before that we were strangers. Stranger danger
I thought i mentioned that. That's probably been the worst grief I've experienced. But the long drawn out grief of the first 29 years of my life, was pretty brutal.
Killing your ego usually shouldn't come with grief. But it's not always a blissful universal experience. My first ego death was multi dimensional, universal, it allowed me to learn all the wisdom I had collected up until that point and connect with being a human being and connect with every other human being in this world and I realised that we are apart of this universe and world
Earth
And that we ARE the universe and we all have brains and they are tiny universes.
And then I could notice so many things that I never could notice before I killed my ego. Colour especially.
And my brain seemed to rewire itself in order for me to feel joy again. My brain was lit up with hormones. Coming from who knows where, it could communicate perfectly to each other for the first time in decades I assume.
My second ego death was a very bad experience. I'm thinking now it was because my ego was killed and I didn't personally kill it. So I was ready to let it go and I still haven't. It's like weekend at Bernie's up in here.
I'm propping my old ego up with a hat and cocktail and making her look alive still. This is a big part of what I'm needing to let go of in order to allow a new ego to grow. Im resisting this new ego. Yet I want it so bad because I haven't felt whole since it was killed.
I don't plagerise lol. I might write poetry lyrics or song lyrics but I don't say it's mine and I usually credit them if it's necessary. That's a serious allegattion and super illegal thing to accuse a public writer of. So back it up or prob best not to say it
I've died twice and with one came a reincarnation. The second one part of me has stayed died and no reincarnation in sight seemingly. That's where I am now. But, the third spiritual awakening It was literally just an awakening and kind of a reuniting with my inner child aka my soul.
....and a tout of this new dimension I had entered including a floating grandfather clock and being told colour was superior to time. ......I was not on any psychedelics just FYI
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Is this from the Tibetan book of living and dying? Lol. I want your opinion not a Tibetan monk David
Because its plagiarism to start but also its boring. It's much more interesting yo hear someone's reaction to something than just regurgitating others words. Imagine I did that with my blog. It would be very boring and meaningless. I'm more into Hinduism as a life philosophy
Pain is fundamental as is love and you don't have one without the other ever
Grief is love. In short
I don't seek grief quite the opposite however surrendering to grief is a beautiful thing to do. But it's not always so easy. I've never found surrendering to pain as easy. Or wanted. I've been trying to become friends with pain lately. Because before that we were strangers. Stranger danger
Life and death mainly
Don't I say Jethro in particular?
I thought i mentioned that. That's probably been the worst grief I've experienced. But the long drawn out grief of the first 29 years of my life, was pretty brutal.
Killing your ego usually shouldn't come with grief. But it's not always a blissful universal experience. My first ego death was multi dimensional, universal, it allowed me to learn all the wisdom I had collected up until that point and connect with being a human being and connect with every other human being in this world and I realised that we are apart of this universe and world
Earth
And that we ARE the universe and we all have brains and they are tiny universes.
And then I could notice so many things that I never could notice before I killed my ego. Colour especially.
And my brain seemed to rewire itself in order for me to feel joy again. My brain was lit up with hormones. Coming from who knows where, it could communicate perfectly to each other for the first time in decades I assume.
My second ego death was a very bad experience. I'm thinking now it was because my ego was killed and I didn't personally kill it. So I was ready to let it go and I still haven't. It's like weekend at Bernie's up in here.
I'm propping my old ego up with a hat and cocktail and making her look alive still. This is a big part of what I'm needing to let go of in order to allow a new ego to grow. Im resisting this new ego. Yet I want it so bad because I haven't felt whole since it was killed.
I was asking you to write it more concisely because I didn't really understand your point but i just went through it little by little as you can see ?
I don't plagerise lol. I might write poetry lyrics or song lyrics but I don't say it's mine and I usually credit them if it's necessary. That's a serious allegattion and super illegal thing to accuse a public writer of. So back it up or prob best not to say it
Example?