You know I didn't want to have to haunt you

But what a ghostly scene...

If you send me a negtive message about my relationship with my deceased friend/ex-boyfriend Jethro Cave who I had a psychosis over due to the melancholia that struck me at the announcement of his death in May 2022. This will be a standard reaction and I do mean every word. No threat is empty.

This is something that happened yesterday, and what Im saying this for.

LOL so, what started as a graceful reaction from me, to an extremely offensive message sent from a guy I haven't seen for literally 8 years, "Brisbane Martin", in which he was negatively appraising my relationship with Jethro, why? I don’t know. Because he never met him and he was also laughing that I got 3 likes on a instagram post.....?? Telling me Ill never be a Kardashian.......hmmmm sure Martin, both things that keep me up at night, "likes" and "not being a Kardashian".....

This is a "man" who is nearly 50 years old. BTW.

I did start by "being the bigger person," but I’d say I lost my way somewhere between graceful and straight up psychopathic ha.

I started slipping into what some would call a kind of felony of words maybe. Definitely cause for him to get an IVO on me. He could definitely report it, if he was a snitch, which he probably is but my defence would be......."he started it."

By the end, which was 45 minutes later eeeek, I can see there's a evolution of violence rising within my words and threat choices that is some what beautiful and also quite horrifying at the same time. And I'd like to thank watching the Sopranos in full eight times for this and my ability to express my anger when it needs to be expressed, in full. It was the Rammstein equivalent to a instagram message.

I may have expressed my anger a little too much and Im not proud of that. And I never feel good about it necessarily. It’s kind of weak. But sometimes I just can’t walk away.

And I didn't have in myself to go with grace.....

Taylor understands me…

Im on your side girl.