THE PLAN
and the reality (whatever that means anymore I do not know, all I know is I want to go deeper into it. V.R will remove us all from it further away. Makes me sad)
Plan – ideas or where my ideas have manifested.
1.                      The mother/the abuser
2.                      Hate
3.                      Denial
4.                      Darkness
5.                      Resentment
6.                      Addiction
7.                      Sex work
1.                      The first S.A
1.                      Pain
2.                      Psychosis
3.                      Darkness
4.                      Surrender
5.                      Glands
6.                      Hormones
7.                      Clarity
8.                      Murder
9.                      Ego death
10.                     10.Beauty
11.                     11.Colour
12.                     12.The end of darkness
13.                     13.
14.                     14.
15.                     15. Introversion/compassion
16.                  The lotus flower
17.                  Increase in intellect
18.                  Increase in the harmonisation with the patterns of the world
19.                  The universe my friend
20.                  Karma my new watch dog
21.                  Karma smacks my bitch up aka me
22.                  Getting to know karma
23.                  Karma my friend-ish
7.                      The reversal
1.                      A decision
2.                      Next!
3.                      Choosing the dark path
4.                      The idea of choice as a positive.
5.                      Not a feminist
6.                      Music
7.                      Portals
8.                      Wanrings
9.                      Language
10.                  Communication
11.                  Rape
5.                      Meeting my soul mate
1.                      What is a soulmate
1.                                                                                                                                         The dark path leading me to one of the most wonderful experiences of my life
2.                      eeeee
4.                      The second S.A
1.                      Victim X gains a predator and a drug of choice. The era of using (everyone or just one).
2.                      Her relationship with the dead/death
3.                      Dimension number TWO
4.                      Four dimensions total
5.                      Cyborg-ism over femin-ism
6.                      Evil versus tragedy
7.                      Colour verses time
8.                      All the ME’S meet
9.                      Killing my ego In a brutal bloody mess. It had to be that way…
10.                  The revisiting of my ego to test how strong I had got since my first S.A. The re-visit was the entrance of my egos ghost into my life for six years.
11.                  My egos second death.
12.                  Karmic linage
13.                  My ego kicks my ass. But never wins.
14.                  Nature has to involve a clear winner and loser
15.                  Nash equilibrium doesn’t exist in nature. Big bank takes little bank.
Evil verses tragedy
1.                      Male formation of me – Jethro
2.                      The test
3.                      Faith in my paradise/foundation
4.                      Violence
5.                      Drugs
6.                      Co-dependence
7.                      Family
8.                      Sex
9.                      Forever bonds
10.                     10.Becoming friends with my old ego
11.                  My relationship with the dead/death
1.                      Life changing events
2.                      Psychosis
3.                      Do you die when your twin flame dies?
4.                      Doing the right thing
5.                      Good and evil. trying to be both.
5.                      Now
1.                      Where the fuck is he?
2.                      How to go on
1.                                                                                                                       Where did everyone go??
3.                      The unknowing