THE DARK PATH

PART 2/4 HITLER - 420 - COLOUR THESE HAVE BEEN THE THREADS OF NARRATIVE WEAVING THROUGH MY LIFE AFTER HAVING MY FIRST SPIRITUAL AWAKENING. PT. 2

THE DARK PATH 

The dark path is when one can not integrate the blissful knowledge learnt from their S.A into their lives. It can also be when something accidentally pushes you back into the darkness, a traumatic event or any new unexpected experience where you have little support could put you back in the dark including the S.A itself.

I got there after my second S.A experience and it wouldn’t seem like that’s where I would have ended up, after how amazing and life changing, perspective shifting my experience was. It was out of this world beauty, I don’t think that kind of beauty has an existence in this reality. But what I felt happening a few weeks after the experience, and there was a distinct moment I made the decision for it to begin, was a new cave started to grow around me. I’ll call it Next Level Darkness. (The fact I just wrote, I made the decision, means it is a choice. However, its like the choice to use Heroin, you know what I’m getting at there? It’s a coping decision probably, influenced by a lot of fear and default innate brain responses to “keep me alive”).

I do believe, it could be the dark side of dharma throwing you a curve ball to test your strength, test the work you did and how well you did it. This is the moment when you eat the apple and the darkness starts to block the light. I once couldn’t see for six months, that how hard I kicked the darkness back into my life this time.

WHO IS THE PREDATOR IN ADAM AND EVE? 

Misogynists will say Eve was, for corrupting Adam. Some might say God, but no one would say Adam. Why is Adam just a victim of circumstance? Why is Adam a victim at all? I don’t want to hate Adam, because as a human I am Adam and I’am moving away from hating humans, because I no longer hate myself and the more human I become, I know now, the better for me.

Leonard Cohen wrote in a poem I read recently, “…and Adam was already free.” I don’t know what he meant exactly still. 

But for me, until I am at peace with the Adam character, I sit half way between utopia and dystopia. This is where I see the snake sitting. This is why I have always identified with the snake best in this story since my first S.A experience. 

The snake is seemingly worshipped at the Vatican. The picture below shows the main room of worship for the Vatican dwellers (ha) aka The Pope and George Pell was/is there (is he still alive? who cares) et al. I can’t tell, but it looks like, the snake is attacking the stage with its fangs and in biting into the stage, this is allowing Jesus to be released from the darkness or taken down to the darkness. By just looking at it, it’s hard to tell which it is. (Picture below snake picture, is of the sculpture of Jesus on the stage behind the Pope. (Don’t think M.Angelo did that one)). Was this part in the bible?

I have read a lot of the old testament stories but not anything about the snake and Jesus, or Jesus rising up from (I guess) hell. If you know to which story they are referring in either testaments or think you might even please comment or comment anyway to tell me your opinion on this. It’s very interesting to me.

When this picture of the Vatican was taken they were obviously having their annual yearly roller-disco on the stage (??? lol).

This is the Jesus raising from hell in between the snake fangs. if you have any insight please share by commenting pleeeease.

The dark path isn’t necessarily the wrong path, its just a different course. However, that course can be dangerously close to cycling if you get lost, which is possible considering it’s hard to see in the dark.

Sometimes I think it’s because I chose the dark path, after my second S.A, that I now hold a different form of wisdom, that those who don’t take it lack and I like having this wisdom.

I have this wisdom from the dark side of life and the light side of life now and I believe this is very valuable to me and I would not change a thing. However,(the problem with the dark path is theres usually a however).

However, had I not taken the dark path, I can’t help but think there would be certain events that took place on the dark path, that wouldn’t have happened had I not taken it. Can one individual’s decisions, impact the world around them that much? I guess, if you are a fan of chaos theory you would say yes, I’ll stick with “I don’t know,” because I did choose it and for that I’ll never know. However, I can think logically about it and say it has a probability, that those events wouldn’t have happened had I not gone down the dark path, of about 75%-80%. (I hope it’s not true though at those numbers).

Personally, I don’t think I had a choice though either, I have been always destined to end up with and attracted to Moloch. Maybe it’s apart of me innately, I have been told by God it is (a man calling himself God at this op shop told me I’m evil once).

The non-dark path enlightened people, like the dark path enlightened people all have the same destiny in their relationships though, they will either grow to be the best people to know or maybe the most isolated people no one knows. That’s the only two paths I know we have, extremes. I admit, I’am becoming the latter, because I refuse to not be myself and I won’t.

Honesty, good intentions and the want for love and only love, are my most hated traits by others. They also hate that I refuse to be cynical, but I no longer need to be cynical since I know who I am and who I am NOT (this is just as important as knowing who you are) and I can not compromise any of these things that make up my integrity. The negative side to this is, I really want this for people I love but there is a dark and isolating side to that. Which is that, after having these awakenings, I can see and feel people’s defect of character very strongly. Especially, the people closest too me and they all end up hating me the most because of it and vice versa.  

Im not saying, I don’t have defects of character ahhaahahha, of course I do. But it’s different after you accept yourself. And there’s some people who don’t have this self discovery struggle and good for them. But I was born an alien and had to journey to become a human and I’ll be on that journey until the day I die, which I know very well could be today. (This is important to remember not worry about).

I don’t know how to explain to the other aliens how to start their course to human. Because, I was pushed forcibly there. I know that if you follow the way of the Buddha aka The Book of Living and Dying, that is a sure way to manually get there. However, it’s hard, and takes a lot of work that sometimes TIME does not allow us. Time and space together, causes boundaries prohibiting us to expand our minds beyond it (and it’s the beyond it that is where the B word lies). It seems that time was designed that way, it had to have been. It is so hard to understand a world beyond thought within this space and time reality, for this It can not be fundamenta.

Well, I know it’s not, but I can’t prove this to you. Im an atheist, asking you to believe. fml.

to be cont.