Oops I did it Again

I fucked up my life and pissed off Facebook

So I am a little slow but obviously, Im probably not allowed to solicit prostitution on Facebook which I didn’t make a habit of until I wrote that last blog post and shared it on Facebook. And I was in so much anger when my account got restricted, it was hindering me from selling Jethro’s book on my Facebook page with Shopify. I was like WHAT COULD IT POSSIBLY BE THIS TIME?

Then I put 2 and 2 together and it equaled guilty.

So I think I’m in a solid habit of fucking my life up on a daily basis. I have bad spending habits, I don’t eat well and never exercise. But thank god Im getting old and I’m starting to feel it more these days so I think Im going to start to do something about it. I was thinking Bikram yoga, cut down on sugar significantly
(hard), cut down on drugs or literally go clean but that is pretty extreme. But I think if I go extreme I won’t have to change my life all too much to go along with these life-changing decisions.

I have been clean before for two years and what I got from that time saved me and taught me lessons I will always use in life forever more. It put me back on course. I was a sinner before that day I had my first spiritual awakening and then I was just shoved back on course by some kind of annoyed energy making me do It because I can just imagine watching me was so annoying, I just kept eating the cupcake that electrocuted me and there was no “uh huh” moment in sight….seemingly.

I also got into Monash University which is my third attempt at finishing this bitch, and I already haven’t been to one class and it’s week 2 and what’s worse I can’t even log into my student account. But this whole situation is scaring me to death because I am really hard on myself because Im HIGHLY neurotic which is a personality trait that doesn’t get medicated AND IT SHOULD.

So what’s my point? Paradise as default. No matter what I do what ruins my life from day to day I am in a default mode of Paradsie, which I haven’t allowed anyone to rip from my tight grip up til now. I was given this around seven years ago, which was bliss. There is only one way to describe it and its the B WORD. Bliss is like freedom, belonging, flying, love, insight, clarity, beauty and warmth all in my one feeling. (if I had to describe it).

I got a booking TBC… lol